BEING PRODUCTIVE (EVEN THE SMALLEST THINGS)

I've started my 4 months break since early of May 2017. I don't even want to mention how hard was my final examination but I did because I just need to emphasize the difficulty level.  I'll be starting my next semester (which is the 3rd semester) early September and then another continuous 8 months (of endless assignments and stresses) to go. But I don't want to think ahead too much so let's save that for later okay?

There's this thing that has been on my mind for so long. It's comfort zone. I realised that I am too content with my life as of now. Not that I'm saying that I'm constantly showered with everything that I have ever dreamt of. It's just there's nothing that's pushing me or pressuring me to do something outside of my comfort zone. And that's bad. This year, I will be turning 21 and I found myself to be so relaxed when all of my other friends are busy attending this event and volunteering for that project and whatnot. Being blessed with a scholarship and a 5 year job contract are some sort of assurance for me that I don't need to do more, act more and involve more when in fact someone like me should go out and explore. So I have decided to change myself. Slowly but steadily. Going for a volunteer project might be too much as a starter and it requires a lot of money (the main reason), time and energy. I don't have that much balance in my account so I need to save a bit first. Not to mention that I am an introvert. You don't know how much I dislike talking something that will trigger people to think and ponder. Yes, omongan kosong tu memang kacang goreng but informational discussions scare me because I'm afraid if my opinions are stupid or if my ideas are not creative enough. Those kind of pressures do get me.

Well what I'm trying to say is, even though these are considered as baby steps, I decided to take a few towards change by applying for jobs. Just part time jobs at the moment as I don't want to spend my whole holiday working and not making any time for my family. Just my two cents. I'll try my best to update on my blog what I've been doing this holiday and hope that to whoever is reading this will gain something beneficial. Wish me luck!